i study 4 10 mins n play my touch for 2hrs:(:(

STUDYING IS BORING:(

time 2 study...
but i still dont feel e need 2 concentrate:(

SHOULD I GO OR NOT?

i used to love going to sentosa...
i love e sun...
i love e sand...
i love e icy n salty water...
i love e ppls that i go with...
but when i was asked to go this weekend...
it jus dont feel right...
the feeling is wrong...
i jus cant convince myself to go...
same sun...
same sand...
same water...
but different ppl...
is it e cause?
i noe i not really close to them...
still haven open my heart to accept them...
i been trying hard... real hard...
2 accept them as my close friends...
every1 tat i noe r my friends...
but how many ppl can take e next step 2 me 1 of my close friends.

mayb i jus thinking 2 much...
mayb is jus cos e exam is jus around e corner...

saving time:)

i am gonna SAVE!
i am going 2 put aside 1/3 of my pay everytime i work...
not not use them...
till time is ripe:D

work was fun...
except tat it is so squeezey:(
e attire sooo cool:D
huge bow tie:D

love is sweet

I love prawn prawn:)

it is really great 2 have $ in my wallet again:)
but how long will it last?
been looking around blogshops...
i have plans...
but am wondering if it will work out...

i more stress then tired...
u really have alot more 2 learn...
seriously ALOT...
i am trying 2 help u...
but first u must help youself...

i losing my voice...
but for u i will drink more water...
eat less fried food...
cos i need my voice!!

i realised tat i have great friends around me:D
n u r 1 of them:D:D
there are times in which i did wat i am not suppose to do...
there are also times that i did not do wat i am suppose to do...
i noe i am stubborn somedays...
hard to handle others days...
n maybe even a combination of both...
but i am harmless...
u cant vomit blood jus becos of me...
if u do it is time to see the doctors...
u cant get into a mishap jus cos i dont listen...
if not i will be the 1 behind it...
haha...

i will endure( sound familier?) this difficult and stressful life
life is not prefect now...
but it will be a step nearer 2 prefection 2morrow:)
be assured that i will put what i learn into practice even though i do not or is unable to show it...

in e past...

i can earn $100 a day...

but now...

i take 3 days 2 earn tat amt...

haiz...

is it all coincidence?

all did all happen for a reason?

went online and u went offline??

u r suppose 2 work on fri n i heard tat u r going ice skating??

u r suppose 2 work n u said u wont be in singapore...

is it all excuses or it is real...

i cant see the difference...

wa...

now is like everything our fault and u have no fault...

u say till u are not in the wrong due to your past experiences...

i admit that we are in the wrong...

but then, if u had taken care of your belonging in the first place, this will not happen...

the past is the past...

it cannot be undone...

your experience when u r young will definitely affect u to a certain extend...

but u r however letting the memories take over your mind n control u...

in school; teacher, at home; parents are sure to teach you to take care of your belongings n valuables...

u said till your bag is super important to u...

with all your exam notes..

however, if it is so important to u, u wont leave it unattended...

i noe exam result is important to you...

but then shouldnt you a least inform the others your whereabout?

we tried to stop you, u said u didnt hear...

k...

when we finally found you, i thought you noe wat happened...

i thought u saw it...

i thought everything is over...

i thought whatever u wrote is jus a joke...

i when 2 check my grades...

n u said that i still can happily go check my grades when didnt u also abandon us to check it in e 1st place?

your grades is important 2 u, then y cant it be important to me?

then when our friend wan to explain to you, u rolled your eyes...

she left without a word, leaving me behind culeless...

what do u expect me to tell u when u ask who is behind this...

u expecting me to say that' oh... a group of us are playing a prank on u'

when i dont even noe wat happen at e moment i was checking the grades...

i was at a total lost...

i when down with u, asking where is she...

u ignored me...

i ask u want go biz park look for ppl...

u happily jus take out your ear piece in listen to your music...

it is just as though i am invisible and am talking to that wall behind u...

i left u and went biz park...

i am actually leaving sch with one of our friend and head off to work...

but i stayed...

i stayed with another of our friend...

i stayed trying 2 look 4 u at the seat outside lt intending to explain everything to u...

u r not there...

yet u r with you best friend...

our friend msg u, no reply...

she attend the same lecture with u only to seat alone...

u had been asking us to see from your point of u...

y not see it in ours?

the plank is supposedly to be harmless...

even if its is not, we tried to stop u...

we didnt mean any harm....

you had been the 1 in our clique that mistake other ppl action easily...

like that monday after my birthday...

u think too much n interpreted my actions to be negative....

that u celebrated too many times with me...

that i dont want u to celebrated with me any more...

i thought u cherish our friendship...

but 2day u said this few words in your last sentence '连朋友也做不了'

i suddenly feel that u have no longer want this friendship any more...

FAIRYTALE

i finally have a nice long sleep...

without any project and presentation stress..

a sleep a long for a long time...

time to concentrate for my MR end semester test on wed...

i didn't even attend any single of that lecture, print any of the module notes after e mid semester test...

i am going to be a sleeping beauty for the next few days:D