SOME1 HELP ME!!!

am SUPER tired sia...
fri n sat work from 12noon 2 3am...
sun work from 12noon 2 2am...
i wan my sleep...

this week worse...
tue-12noon
wed-10am
thurs-6pm
fri-6pm
sat-12noon
everyday in OT list somemore...
ZZZ...

fri
had VIP event...
western style...
damn slack...
haha...
but fun...
guys wore black jacket...
girls wore vest...
:)

sat
spent e whole afternoon doing chinese dinner setup...
am super tired...
4 zombies work 2day...
haha...
they are...
chee leong, wei yee, wilson n zhi yang...
they didnt sleep e day before...
they choose not 2...
haha...
partner with jun ren at night...
alot 2 say...
but dont wish 2 say...
it is just terrible...
was a half zombie before event start...
become awake during event...

things are getting more n more complicated...
how do i ans...
i dont noe wat i want!!

sun
turned into a zombie myself...
haiz...
had buffet in e afternoon n chinese dinner at night...
afternoon partner with...
andrew n auntie chris son...
night partner with kai meng...
everything went real smooth 4 me...
except tat am super tired le...

gave an ans... but is tat really wat i wan???

HAPPY HAPPY:)

fate changing soon:)
haha...
managed 2 convinced my mom 2 let me have my own room...
wahaha...
got 条件 1...
haha...
everytime work must give her $25...
haha...
but nevermind...
i have own room...
hehe...

BUSY DAYS HERE I COME...

super lazy 2 post...
haiz...
went out with steph kong, xin yee n kim 4 dinner at POMO...
haha...
steph taking dance class there...

haiz...
work cancelled 2morrow...
haiz...
boring day...
but after tat will be busy days!!

he had been offline lately...
is he trying 2 avoid??
hope not...
made me feel worse...
have a feeling tat he will even not work this few days...

AM SICK!!

haiz...
felt terrible 2day...
woke up with a real bad sore throat:(
mayb due 2 e huge amt of old chang kee tat i bought yesterday when have a slight sore throat:P
but still went out....
lai di didnt meet up with me...
something happen last min...
so went find cousin at borders...
didnt noe tat i am so pale till i took pics...
haiz...
saw yan ling at far east with her bf...
didnt go up 2 say hi...
haha...
eat 2 ice cream 2day:)

ZZzzzz...

had been working...
sat-6pm to 4am...
sun-12noon to 4am...
so am super tired 2day...
haha...
sat event is sian...
haha...
table assignment- 2 to 3...
however 1 of my table not open:P
haha...
so did 2 2 2...
haha...
sun event was terrible!!
hate all e guest...
terrible guest...

hais...
super weird facing him e last few days...
tried 2 avoid seeing him in e eyes...
hais...

SORRY AGAIN...

feel so selfish...

a word 4 u...
if ever any1 u think is worthy come by...
dont hesitate...
dont wait...
if not i will feel worse...

PAINT, PAINTS N PAINTING...

went cousin school again...
had 2 leave early...
so as 2 go rtc collect my pay for cafe 1...
didn manage2 finish e painting...
still got 2 more faces 2 do...
n then touch up...
then it's done...
first time paint such a big painting in such a short time...
haha...
my o level piece is smaller...
yet told a few months...
i finish abt half e painting in <2 days...
haha...

SPEECHLESS...

dont noe y...
but i really do feel like crying...
never hurt any1 this way...
just have this feeling tat e person's feeling is real hurt...
i am sorry:(

THE TRUTH REALLY DO HURT SOMETIMES...

SHIT...
wat is happening?
y is this happening???
arh...
pray hard tat this is not true...
pls...
i shouldnt have asked so much...
i dont wanna noe e truth le...
i dont wanna hurt e person's feeling...
n hope tat i hadnt already hurt him...
sorry...
but i ready cant do tat...
hope e truth wont hit u 2 hard...
hais...
wondering how now...
both working on sat n sun...
hope wont be so weird...

TIME FLIES...

am suppose 2 meet yun hui 2 go shopping 1...
but in e end...
end up in her school helping her friend do her 'o' level art...
-_-"...
e submittion date is like in 2 more days minus e weekends n public holiday...
n e thing is tat they are not even half done 4 e painting on canvas...
haiz...
they r somemore slacking in e art room...
yun hui friend art piece have a total of 6 person...
n they are ALL headless...
went there 4 like 2 hours...
n only manage finish 1 person...
haiz...
going back her school 2morrow again...
must rmb bring own brushes n palate...
their brushes are spolit...
n palate r containers...
haiz...
am super bloated now...
ate kfc before going home...
n once reach home...
i ate my dinner...
cos my mom cooked...
haha...

2morrow going back rtc 2...
2 collect e cafe pay...

:)

work yesterday was ok:)
had 2 finish e dinner in 1hr...
did 3 2 4...
with auntie yan yan n raymond...
after e dinner end....
stayed inside ballroom with steph lee...
n do almost nothing 4 e next hr or so...
hahas...
even though work ended early...
like at 1am...
i am jus 2 tired...
got my works day next week:)
haha...
during event...
she noe i working...
somemore ask me reply asap...
when she last time keep saying work time cannot use phone...
Zzz...

HAIZ...

wonder y am i e first 1 2 reach went having outings with friends?
why am i e 1 tat always reach on time?
why am i e 1 tat is seldom late?

HAIZ...

had terrible sore throat since tat night of work...
haiz...
n keep losing my sleep 2...
haiz...

YP CELEBATION:)

went far east plaza celebrate yan peng birthday...
went out with 40+
and am back with 0...
haiz...
2day was real sian...
lai di n jie ying have 2 leave early...
n cindy have 2 leave around 6.30++...
so yan peng walk around far east plaza awhile more...
hahas...
bought a jumper n a bag 4 yan peng:D
i noe she will love it=D
hahas...
her dad sent me home after tat...
haha...
thanks uncle:)

:)

back from town...
meet lai di there...
going back 2morrow...
hahas...

:D

had a real fun day at work 2day...
even though is buffet...
work end real early cos event end at 8+ 9...
steph is back 2 work:)
haha...
so long no c her in rtc le...
hahas...

...

am ready 4 another day of work...
had a nice long sleep...
no use thinking of it liao right?
lets all start afresh each new days...

SCARED

had a terrifying n tired night...
i saw wat i had been trying 2 avoid 4 years...
saw wat i fear...
now i couldnt stop thinking abt it...
i cant get it out of my mind....
i dont think i will be able till i cut all bonds with rtc...
which is hard n will never happen...
today is the day tat i broke down n cry during work...
i really couldnt control myself...
well...
how could any1....
when they c wat they feared most in almost a couple of steps away...
i was appointed 2 do cocktail with wei leng n wei xuan...
i realised tat am in e same foyer with a huge yellow snake...
i thought... k... if i stay away from tat area i will be okay...
i thought it will stay in tat area..
but i was wrong....
yanto asked me to start clearing glasses... as the cocktail tables are getting full...
so i was like... ok... i will just clear the cocktail tables around me...
i only turned my head 4 a moment...
n when i look back...
e snake is not where it was....
it was like next 2 e cocktail table nearest 2 me....
i really jumped sia...
n i believed serveral guests saw tat...
i didnt dare 2 walk past it...
so had 2 made a big turn 2 e bar as it in front of e door!!!
e whole dinner i was not on my right mind...
i was scaring myself...
with thoughts of e snake...
sorry xian liang... u are like doing all e four tables yourself...
after e dinner...
that snake had a performance...
n when i heard e mc...
i left my partner 2 do clearing n went hiding...
haiz...
sorry xian liang... u have 2 clear e tables yourselves 2...

wanted 2 leave wat happen 2day here...
not intending 2 take e memories with me...
hope 2 forget it asap...
n tat there will never be such a scary vistor 2 RTC again....
hope tat it wont hunt me in mine dreams 2...

:DDD

a super worn out....
went go meet li ying, zhi sen, kai meng, steph n her bf...
had so much fun...
li ying pass me a stack of archie:D
thanks...
n kai meng help me carry...
so sweetxD
haha...
went movie watching...
hehe...
tyan soon n pris couldnt join us...
due 2 work work work...
but we manage 2 eat our lunch n super late dinner with tyan soon:)
went iluma(how u spell tat) 4 e first time...
not real fun there...
haha...
we walk from cine 2 bugis 2 wait 4 pris but she have 2 OT:(
so we mrt back orchard...
hehe...
working later:)
haha...
actually dont noe wat time i start working...
i forgotxD
so decided to just go at 6...
wahaha...

RESULT IS OUT

NO SUB TO BE TAKEN... i think
hahas...
1 C+, 1 B+, 3 Bs and 1 Pass...
result: GS (i have seriously no idea wat it is)
haha...
boring day ahead...
but 2morrow should be better:D
going cine with steph, zhi sen, li ying they all 2morrow=D

few more hours...

went celebrate cindy birthday 2day at town area...
was e first 2 arrrive as usual:P
haha...
shop with yan peng n e soul of jie ying [she was late] 4 cindy's present...
brought a jumper n a necklace 4 her in the end xD
hahas...
ate pepper lunch 4 lunch [tea rather]...
shouldnt have listened 2 jie ying in e first place...
e pepper lunch at taka/ngee ann city closed down...
saded...
have 2 go allll e way back 2 way we start...
and headed 4 shaw house cos jie ying said tat the traffic light connecting ion n borders close down...
had 2 leave early cos of work...
saw wei leng after sooo long:D
haha...
2day event--- buffet!!
SO NOT FUN...
so sian till i am super tired now...
hahas..
during ot, played with red colourings...
my hands look blooded...
hehe...
e colouring cant came off:(
now my hand is 1 red, 1 normal...
haiz...
but managed 2 fool zhi sen:P
n andrew...
hehe...

my exam results will be out in a few hours...
pray hard tat i will not be in the sub list...
but...
i so feel like taking sub...
cos...
at least i will have things 2 do...

more abt me:)

My view on myself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend i are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

My readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of my love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

My views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for me:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do i view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What am i most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is my true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

:DD

collect my cheque 2day:D
went watch the proposal at cineleisure orchard with li ying...
haha...
a damn nice show...
hahas...
then went far east...
had a 'extension':D
light brown 1...
then after walking 1 round at far east, we make our way 2 bugis street:)
haha...
i bought a dress...
damn nice:)
li ying bought 2 bermudas 4 her younger bro...
such nice sister...
how i wish 2 have a younger bro/sis 4 me 2 teng n a older 1 to teng me:P
haha...

if 2day hui yi is there, i think will be home empty-handed...
she just give me e impression that watever i do is werid 2 her...
i dont really like e feeling of going out with her, esp shoppin...
she change real alot...
hais...
she isnt wat i noe in e past liao...
haiz...

Zzzzz...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY REBACCA SEAN'S MEI, CINDY, YAN PENG, JASREEL,
couldnt sleep...
keep waking up in e middle of e night...
Zzzz...

kor starting work 2day...
all e best:)

haiz...
holiday so damn sian...
wan go back school...

=)

yeaterday:
went flag day at bugis early in e morning
only 9 out of 14 of those who say 1 go went...
e stickers so cool la...
haha...
went work with lai di n li ying...
work 4 e cafe...
yanto never tell us is wear pants 1!!!
wear skirt with e shirt sooo damn funny...
yesterday is some club event...
so slack yesterday...
haha...
e cafe ppl all veri nice...

y must ah bengs be ah bengs?

=D

went watch G-force 2day...
haha...
zsen veri of e stupid...
wahaha...
tyan soon meeting us before e movie...
he thought tyan soon not watching coshe watch before le...
haha...
if tyan soon not watching with us, he meet us so early 4 wat???
haha...
li ying n serene late...
n steph have 2 leave 4 e airport..
well...
she is not flying away...
but go there 4 work stuff...
we stay at burger king till 11 plus...
haha...
playing guessing game n some i never game...
haha..
want 2 go out again with them!!

having flag day 2morrow at around bugis from 9-2...
come support:P
hahas...

CONFUSED

had 1 nice n long sleep...
slept 4 e whole afternoon n night....
hehe...
going out with zhi sen, kai meng,steph woon, li ying... etc... 2 town
going watch G-FORCE...

haiz...
wondering wat is going on???
serene ask me work on sat at 11...
but yanto tell me dont need...
who should i listen 2??

AM BACK...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUI TZE, KIM AND STEPH WOON:)
HOME FROM CHALET:)
really enjoy it...
haha...

1st day
reach there around 5....
only sean n germz r there...
haha...
hide from lai di...
haha...
she cant find me...
hehe...
she thought i jump down from e balcony...
hehe...
went fetch OJY when she reach...
super late sia...
she take bus got few hours sia...
lai di manage 2 scare quite a few ppls tat night...
when they all arrive at e chalet...
played truth n truth... while e majong lovers play their majong...
slept at 5.00 in e morning...
am damn tired...

2nd day...
wakey at around 1...
disturb jie ying n janice up...
haha...
went cycling...
or rather mosqitoes feeding...
haha...
i didnt noe how ride a bike...
haha...
so took e chance 2 learn yesterday:)
haha...
thanks jie ying n lai di:)
for teaching me....
e bicycle uncle 2...
n e rest...
didnt really manage 2 ride 1 in e end...
learning FAILED...
haiz...
but not giving up:)
BBQ at night...
even though am damn full, went mac 2 buy double filet-o-fish burger meal!!!
slept around 2 plus...
e other RMT class(1R02) had their chalet 2...

3rd n last day...
wakey at 7 n prepare 2 leave for home...
am so sleepy...

manage noe my classmates better...
even thought not all came...
am skipping flag day this sat...
going 4 work...